I warn you now, this is a depressing post! If you want to skip it I won’t hold it against you! 😛
I am sad. I have spent the last half hour crying non-stop, and writing this is hard.
But today, things were said to me that hurt me.
I was sent an anonymous email that was hurtful.
“You look too skinny and ill.”
I was upset about the things this email said, including that. So I told someone who I thought would console me.
But they made things worse. The person (someone I am close to!) said I need to stop my ‘crazy dieting’, that veganism was basically an eating disorder, and that “no person in their right mind runs for fun. The only people that run are athletes, or people who are trying to lose weight. You just do it to burn calories.”
That last comment possibly hurt the most. As I posted about just 2 days ago, I have a passion for running, for the reasons I gave there, and so many more. I shouldn’t have to justify the things I do and who I am, but now I will.
At my last doctor’s appointment (3 weeks ago), the doc said I was a healthy weight.
My average calorie intake a day (now and again I count for one day to make sure I’m eating enough) is 2300-2500 calories.
I do not post all of what I eat, or even half of it. A reader request was for me to do a post of everything I eat in a day, and I’ll happily do that at some point.
Since the anonymous emailer asked, I don’t post everything I eat normally because:
- It’s boring. I eat many of the same foods (e.g. I graze on nuts throughout the day) everyday, so it wouldn’t be interesting to read at all.
- It can make readers draw comparisons between what they eat and what they read. I found this personally with some blogs I read. But we are all different, and have different likes/dislikes and needs.
- I never meant, and never want this blog to be a daily log of everything I eat. That’s not why I started this blog. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with blogs like that at all, but that’s not the kind of blog I want to have. I like sharing my favourite meals, or yummy snacks and munchies.
I love blogging, and I love you readers. I love my life. I love my food, and do not fear or avoid foods. I love running and exercising, and do it for enjoyment, and not for weight loss. And most of all, I love myself almost all of the time (no-one is perfect!). I have come so far recently from the unhappiness I went through before. I am now mentally healthy and happy, and to me, that is what matters the most.
I am now going to wallow cheer myself up in the best way:
I don’t have a question for you today, but feel free to leave a comment of your opinion, stories/experiences or your own, or something to help cheer me up! Love you all!
Sorry for the downbeat post lovelies! Tomorrow I’ll be back to my usual self I’m sure
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